domingo, 31 de enero de 2010

Should stop this and go......


aahh~~ I don't know... T__T I really feel as if everything I did in my whole life 'til now has been meaningless.. you know? Everything I've done I never thought about doing it for myself, even though I sometimes think I am, I don't feel I am..
And I'm afraid, don't know of what exactly but... all I know is I don't feel good and fear things could get worse.. Mind is so powerful, isn't it? Sometimes I don't think I can actually control my thoughts, especially bad ones~~ It's so hard to push them away, and I end up drowning in them.. T___T ..
I hate to sound so depressive... it's not good, but I just need to write it.. somehow it helps a little bit to make me feel better..
Soon it'll be February.... I'm really not liking it... see? I'm so not helping myself by having this kinds of thoughts... how am I supposed to succeed having this mentality?? That's what hurts the most... I know what I should be doing to get over it but I don't have the trust and faith.. or more likely.. the guts to do it... so I keep on falling and falling on the same place... over and over again~~
gaahh... I hate what I'm doing to myself... especially because it affects my most loving people...

domingo, 24 de enero de 2010

REBIRTH.


Ya esta queridos lectores... que no creo que sean muchos LOL... ya he cambiado el blog... mmm se borro todo lo que había puesto... pero no importa.. eso pasa por tener esta plantilla clásica.. que tendre que comenzar a acostumbrarme.... por que valen la pena o.o .. bueno aqui escuchando Park Hyo Shin a ver si me calma el alma con esa voz tan suave de él ♥

sábado, 23 de enero de 2010

primer post del año :D

mm creo.. q deberia.... .. cambiar el estiloo del blog.. pero.. no kiero q se borre nada de lo q puse al costadoo D: ,, esperemos q no.. haha o sino me pego un tiroo.. LOOL .. no quiero comenzar de cerooo D: .. please no te elimines nad.a.. xD.. mañana osea hoy mas tarde estaré viendo que blogs usar.. mm tal vez vaya cambiando segun mi animo.. a ver si me pongo a actualizar mas de seguidoo este blog.. les dejoo una foto de ,. el primero de todos.. Park Hyo Shin ♥